ow, my feet are still soring from yesterday's heels. lots of blisters around my toe area. i think its gonna sting when i wear sneakers. alright feet aside, yesterday's graduation night was awesome; alhough i didn't really felt much enthusiasm after the performance but i guess 20 bucks was well paid off. actually thinking about it, i was paying to perform :P i didn't eat much because i was afraid i might get too bloated later on, on stage.

At least i got to wear my ideal dress: flowy white dress, inspired by Andie from step up 2 when she was doing salsa. haha but dammit my dress kept flowing with the wind, felt antsy each time my dress goes up. anyway, the theme for yesterday's party was BLACK AND WHITE. all the grad. students looked so beautifully dressed and smart! some wore hats that went along with suits. pretty and dainty girls in their black/white dresses with make up and done-up wear. i felt a little under-dress because i kinda wore more of a beach wear than a semi-formal to be and i didn't had make up on. i really wanted to do make up to accentuate my eyes, but i guess it was too rushing. in the morning we had to head down for auditions in school. there were altogether 9 performance groups and there were only 4 slots. Thank God we had one of the slots. the others were acoustic and 2 rock bands. i thought the people who stood out from the crowd were Hannah with her doll up dress code, Theodora with her smart/ office dressing and done up make up and hair, Atika with her BEYONCE/RIHANNA look, Muslimin with his arcane look. I missed the pageant show, heard there were lots of dramatic moments, not gonna mention here.

Oh well, we managed to pick the last slot for the performance programme. i guess our mask in disguise with bandanas wasn't really working out for some. my tank top kept going down, and i had to keep pulling it up. geraldine's bandana kept slipping. faizul's one dropped. ahh, lots of distractions. plus i totally messed up my MJ hat move. nonetheless, we had FUN! hearing people's applause and cheering, ahhh a mixture of feelings raging inside.i'm still waiting for the performance video (: anw, thanks to those who helped take our pix!

Samantha, Darrel, Francine, Rong Jie, ChengSheng, Azhar, Zulfattah, Valerie, Atika all won lucky draw prizes!

photos (the rest are on fb) warning: my pose is always the same, damn boring. just wanna block off my fat arms.

Theodora was like: ''eh shanice different pose leh! everytime the same thing. even taking with Mr Lim (principal) also the same pose''

HAHAH she was so right. it is really weird and funny, looking at the same pose over and over again.

Last of all,

10 years with Sam & Theodora <3

hey guys, we definitely been through thick and thin together as one. it started from 2, and later slowly recruiting people to form FAR-Q haha. really miss you guys after we graduate. credits to WJ who worked his ass off for the 7 minute plus remix! this night will never be forgotten man. from the bottom of my heart, love y'all <3. we brought the house down yo!

*altogether: soft far-q*

performance photos:

And so, he popped the question. It was incidental, nothing much planned. At this moment, I’m still feeling rather flabbergast over everything. The day we've met; It was as if our movements played a part of it, something omnipresent influenced every minute of it. Both of us felt the same way. His thinking runs in a similar way, as if he was my other half. To me, he’s just wonderful in his own very way.& so, we will give it a shot.

who am i talking about? well, it remains as an enigma. Dear Lord, we leave this up to You. We trust in You.

your daughter.

Today Valerie and I met for a contemporary open session class at Cathay Jitterbugs. I didn’t know dancing contemporary would be so enervating. We practically rolled around the floor, galloped across the studio and doing ballet jumps on air. I totally screwed my jumps. Seriously, it’s exactly like ballet except that it is more of expressive movements rather than stationary poised ones. But I really liked the choreography. It really gets in touch with your inner emotions. It’s sort of a reposed feeling. The music and the atmosphere add on to that. Nonetheless, it was pretty interesting. I’m going back next Tuesday for round 2.

In the evening, I met up with Moses and Jeremy for ROCKBAND at Novena. Pretty cool dudes I would say. One is good at drumming while the other is good at guitar. For myself, ‘’hard’’ on drumming and ‘’expert’’ on singing HAHA nearly died when I sang Linger and Last Resort. I still love singing evanescence songs though. God Bless those people who hears my voice. The booking was rather pricey. 15 dollars for 2 hours but we overshot the timing by 1 hour. The person let us play for another hour without informing us haha. After that, we were each served a plate of chocolate cake with a can drink, for free! Good chill out place. I recommend!

I would say, perplexity surmounted my contemplation. Still, I’m confused even though things fell into place for me, at the right time, and at the right moment.

PS: Thanks for the company again Moses (:

a few days back when i was switching channels to and fro on the television during the early hours, something captivated me in one of the shows on travel&living. there was this guy who was actually once an illegal immigrant, who sneaked into the borders of America, but now is a certifed citizen in the U.S. knowing the hardship of life that he had been through, he decided to take a turn and help others. he works as a bus driver in the morning to support his mum and himself, and in the night, he comes back home to prepare food for the homeless and drives out every night to the place where all the homeless people waited for him. he didn't charge them, but he decided to give instead, despite his low pay. on his fridge, there was a picture of Jesus. his actions and intentions are just amazingly moving and it just reminds me of how beautiful an individual person can be. he is truly a genuine man, and a great Samaritan. that moment, i knew i had to learn from what he did. this afternoon, there was a lady selling packets of tissues near the traffic junction outside of Heeren at Orchard. Nobody paid much attention to her, including myself. At first i had doubts about buying from her when she approached me but something just made me felt more alert about her situation... i felt sympathetic... i turned back and headed towards her. in her hands she held 5 packets of tissues and she said, ''my dear, any amount will do.''. then thats when my 2dollars went off but it was for good i'm sure. after which, she said ''God Bless You.''

i can't believe i spent 160 bucks in less than 48hrs. a few days ago i bought a pair of converse shoes, a bandanna, and 2 shirts that seriously accentuates my body fats. sadly, i am still procrastinating on exercising. i can still remember the little moments when i was so motivated to exercise at a go, perhaps a miniature version of a triathlon in mind, but i guess the enthusiasm fizzles down quite quickly when the time comes. so right now, i am just cutting down on the food portions i consume and walking long distances to exercise my butt and leg muscles. one good exercise ladies, shopping & climbing up the stairs. it helps to keep the butt flab away because you're actually using only your leg muscles to support your whole body weight when climbing up e stairs. so yup, proved to be quite effective as stated on the magazine. however still, the food keeps coming and my ass is still planted on the seat. in other words, food is accumulating slowly at my hips and thighs area. ahya sad unattractive bootylicious mama.  

fats aside, i finally got hold of my sweatpants! richard and i were shopping non-stop for it around queensway. there weren't any S size left, so i had to take de M size. omg its dam loose and dam baggy. i think i have to fold the bottom quite a number of times and tighten the waist area before dancing in it, unless free show for all when the pants comes down, red underwear with my face on it exposed. just imagine. well anyway, i hope yizzy comes back with my addidas sweatpants from hk. miss her! ps: the sweatpants cost me 60 bucks. the uncle gave me a 10% discount and a roundoff. it's of good quality and it's really hard to find in SG so i decided to get it immediately. as you can see, i'm trying to come out with lots of reasons to feel appeased about getting the product, if not, i'll be wailing over my 60 bucks. OH AND HAHA i feel sorry for Richard for getting a ripoff dye for only 20+bucks that doesn't show the dyed hair colour that he desires. he kept whining about it and the best thing is, he asked whether he should get a bangs cut. dammit i love his vanity.

self reminder: don't keep your hopes too high up.